Tired

And then I just lost the reality; I don't know what to do anymore
or how to feel or how to think about you.
I don't know nothing anymore, feeling lost, alone and just so empty
Like nothing matters anymore, like there's no one to care about me.
I always care about you, but when were you there for me? I don't know anymore.
I feel tired and upset, like a train hit me or like I got a punch to my chest.
I am tired of caring, tired of trying to be good enough for everyone and tired of being dissapointed .
I am not unhappy, I love my live and I don't wanna lose it.
I just had enough drama, enough pain and enough secrets for now.
I wanna lay in my bed and cry, cry, cry untill everything is out
Untill I am ready to face the world and the problems again.